Well it has been a very long time since ive wrote on here. I have alot of my mind... so i figured id just let it out on here for those that still are friends on my blog or any new people coming on it. Please dont bash anything that i have written if you decided to read my stuff. Im just a wife and mom of 3 and living in a hard world. Everyone had there issues and problems and Im just another one going threw it. But anyways...Thanks for reading! =)

Seeing its been awhile since ive written....alot has changed since then. Starting with the kids... Summer is in school. Its called "Transitional Kindergarten" aka TK. Its a new thing they are having now for kids that turn 5 years old after the school year starts for that year...it goes from like nov to about feb or april for those bdays. I dont know...its weird but it get Summer a head start in regular school. She was in pre k before that. I kinda wish she was still at that school (wintergardens elementry). I liked that teacher and she had a few friends there. But im sure she will like this class and make new friends. She is very out going when it comes to making friends. Oh BTW... She start this new school yesterday...so we are still trying to get things organized and in the new routine. I almost had a heart attack cuz on wednesdays they have the half day now and i forgot all about it but seeing this was the first week of school...they didnt have it but i freaked out realizing it was half day but then i remember not the first week. So i set my alarm on my phone...so i dont freak out again. I felt like a bad mom when i was freaking out cuz it was like 12:30 or some where around it and they get out at 12:05 on wednesday for half days. But i called Bryon and made sure and then i was ok. But yeah. That was fun. But other then that... when i did pick her up...it was my first time by myself cuz Bryon was off yesterday so i had some help. But I think I did pretty good. Got the baby carrier thing out and it was great. I was thinking of taking the stroller out but that thing is a pain and there so much dirt where we park...so thank goodness i bought that carrier. But i feel like I put the baby in it wrong or shes not comfortable but i dont know. I do the best i can with it. I always feel weird going to pick up Summer with the other moms there. I feel like they are watching me or judging me or like i have something on my face or something like that. I dont know. I really dont care what people think of me but i just dont like when people stare as your coming up. I know im weird but arent we all! =) But besides that. It went great. Summer loves school. Which is great. I just hope i can make it threw this whole school year. lol. We have started Summer's bedtime at 8:30 now instead of 9pm. But thinking of getting her to go to bed at 8 after while...so she get enough sleep. Just hoping i can get the baby on a routine as well...so i can go to bed at a good time. But we'll see! I forgot to write that before Summer which schools... She was in speech class and it helped her alot. We can understand her alot more and all that But im worried that she might have like ADD...so we are keeping an eye on that. Ok enough about Summer...lol I cant talk about her forever! Ill post more later about her! =)

About Alexis (aka Lexi)...Shes a little feisty thing. She will be 3 years old next month. Oh how time flies. She has been talking alot more and you can understand alot more of what she says which makes it more easier for me when she wants something. She is for sure going to be the one with all the boyfriends with her big blue eyes. Im hoping to maybe get her into pre-k next year...so that should be exciting. =) At times I think she is still a mama's girl but she for sure got her daddy wrapped around her little finger just like the other two. lol Right we are still working on potty training. She as it down but lately she has been pee and pooping in her underwear...so i dont know whats wrong. I thinking shes just wanting to be a rebel. But who knows.

Kaylee is our newest bundle of joy. Right now she is about a month and a half right now. So far...she has been so easy to take care of. She doesnt really cry unless shes hungry or need to be changed. Oh and sometimes when she is bored lol. But other then that...she is a good baby. She was easy at delivery as well. I was 37 or 38 weeks and it was a wednesday night when i was having contractions. I wasnt sure if they were the real ones cuz they kept going back and forth from 5 to 10 mins apart. but i was up until about 2am or somewhere around that and then woke up at 4am (I think) and I thought my water broke. But it wasnt. But before all of this...i had an appt saying i was 2 cm dilated and then when i went to the hospital when i thought my water broke...I was 6cm. So i guess it was real thing if i dilated that much in such little time. The only problem with her was her head was up...when i guess the baby has to be head down at delivery. But another doctor turn her around very quickly. I was just hoping my actual OB doctor was there but it was off on thursdays so i had an on call doctor which was a lady...which i was totally fine with. I prefer lady doctors anyways. But after i had her...I was balling my eyes out. I dont think i didnt that much when i had the other two. It was just probably cuz i was so happy to have her out finally and how big she was lol She was 9lbs 4oz and 21 1/2 inches long. She was my biggest yet! lol But I loved her to death. Now i just cant believe she is already a month old. She is always so happy. Love it!

I love my husband and my kids. They are my world. And nothing will change that.

Well Im sure there so much more i can talk about but Ill end it right here and hopefully write something tomorrow or at least in the next few days! So Peace Out! LOL!

Hello again!
Not much is new! Mostly the same. The only thing is different is we got our tax return and got some thing paid off and bought a few things we probably dont need. Like the labtop. We are always fighting over the computer so we got a pretty cheap but good labtop. He got somethings for the computer to make it work better and he really wanted an xbox....so, we got it for a good price and he got me a game so i would say yes. but whatever hahaha! So some clothes for the girls. I only go them cuz i found something we the same clothes in both sizes. So they can match on some days! so i was very excited about that and even more cuz they were a good price. (got them at costco) Also i got Summer two pairs of shoes. One of them was sandles cuz she really needed something to wear with her dresses. I got a new pair of shoes but still needing to get work shoes really bad. Got me some clothes as well. We mostly got food and just ever day stuff that we havent got in a while. Now our frig is stuff with stuff which is nice for once. We are going to start our bankruptcy hopefully this week or next week. So that will be nice to get off our backs. Bryon put 500 in each of the girls savings to start them off which im every happy about. Things are mostly looking up for now. I just want to end up back where we were. Its really no fun!

Well enough about the money..... Summer has her high risk appt check up today (tuesday). I think this is the last one now that she two. She has improved alot since the last time. And then...the girls have there WIC appt...but it sucks cuz we have to sit threw a class again. I hate it. Ive been threw them before with Summer. I dont know why i have to do it again. Whatever. Maybe ill ask and see what they say! I really hope they give us more formula this time. Alexis eats so much and they only give us 2 cans a month. But with Summer they gave us like 6 to 8 cans. I dont know we'll have to see. Later that day, we are going to do our V-day date since i had to work on that actual day. So it will be nice and it wont be busy. Bryon is planning everything...so i have no idea whats going to happen. Cant wait.

Well with the girls... Nothing really has changed. Summer says a few more words then before. Alexis still loves to smile and talk to us. I sure do love it when she laughs! But so far right now she loves to watch snow white just like Summer does. She still whines alot. She is very demanding when it comes to food! hahaha! But other then that....shes a very happy baby! Summer finally sleeps in her big girl bed. But now that she likes it...during the day...she seems to know when she's tired cuz she get in bed and fall sleep. which is nice. I dont make her go to bed unless she really needs one. They are getting so big. Alexis just turned 4 months on Saturday. :)

Sorry my hand is starting to hurt...so ill write again soon!

I guess its going to be once a month...

That i get to write on here. Well theres not much thats new Besides that Summer is 2 year old but i think i wrote that in the last one. And we had her birthday party on the 3rd of Jan. and it turned out pretty good! Was a little disappointed that some of the point that said would come and didnt. But whatever. Anyways...I also turned 25 on Jan 27th. Had a pretty good day. That night we had alittle party with some of my friends. IT was nice to hangout with them again. But i got alittle drunk and wasnt happy waking up at 4 in the morning and throwing up. But it was all good. Its been about 2 years since i actually got to drink that much. And i probably wont do it again for another year or so. And it fine by me. Its really not my thing. I would rather spend my money shopping or going to disneyland or go on vacation. But yeah. It was good times. Right now we are waiting on ur tax return. Just filed it yesterday! We got a really good amount which is so great! We are going to use it to get our annual passes again. So when we dont have the money really to do much we can just use the gas for the trip up there. The girls will love it since they are still under three. I still got a year for Summer =) ! But yeah....Just have to take care of all our bills and we will be good! Most likely put 1,000 in the girls savings so we can get that started. So far this year has been rocky but when that return comes...we will be so good! Hopefully no more stress on me with any of that. Just worried about our jobs. My work is remodeling and not sure how with all the hours cut and even mine. But whatever. And every now and then Bryon's work keeps talking about closing his work. But who knows what will happen. Im still trying to look for another job but theres really no one that will hire. Which sucks. But im still kinda trying. But just waiting for all this stuff to get better in the world. Enough about the worries even tho i have so much more....

Well Alexis is getting so big. She is still a whiner hahaha. She loves to eat still. But i think i havent posted this yet but... she is teething now. So that has been hell. But she love to smile and laugh and talk in her baby talk. ITs so great. She still loves to be held all the time which isnt so good. But whatcha gonna do. She had been standing more and her little legs are getting stronger. I finally put her in that Johnny jumper thing...and she seem to like in for the first 5 to 10 minutes. Right now im looking into get her a jumperoo or whatever they are called. I think she's love that. She also loves watching tv if i havent said that before. Oh and for sure she loves her swing now. Im so happy she does since her bouncy chair doesnt work anymore. We mostly use it for feedings. But yeah....she still sleeps threw the night which is great. But other them that...shes just a growing baby.

With Summer....OMG (oh my gosh) she is such a handle full. Just in the last few days she started using her chairs and table and standing on them. oh does it make me mad. But she doesnt get it. Eh! I dont know what im going to do with her. Right now everything is about ELMO. She says it all the time. She had like 3 DVD's of him a stuffed elmo and toy elmo (i dont know what they are called) and two books of elmo that she takes around the apartment. She has been saying mama more which im very happy about. She says so much more now. She learning more sentences. She loves to wash her hands and brush her teeth. I dont know why. But i guess it good. I think so just like to climb on her potty cuz its a stool at well and she see herself in the mirror. She for sure love her baby sister. She talks to her in her language and Alexis just smiles back. Its cute. They are just getting bigger and bigger every day.

Well thats all for now. Ill write again soon!

Long time since i wrote on here. Right now everyone sick beside Bryon. Hoping he doesnt. The girls are getting bigger! Summer turned 2 yesterday! Tried to take her our for alittle bit just cuz it was her birthday and i wanted her to have alittle fun even tho she was sick. She doesnt act like she is but in the end you can tell. Summer is really get your speaking down. And you can tell sometimes what she want or whatever. She still babbles alot! We have been trying to potty train her. So far she's only peed in the potty once and it was only a few drops which is still a big step. But since then we've still tried but nothing and kinda leaved it alone and havent really tried. Summer has come to like elmo now but still loves minnie and mickey. Im sure theres other stuff she's done that new but right now i just cant think of it! I blame the sickness.

With Alexis... She's for sure gotta bigger. She loves to smile, laugh and coo. I love how she get excited with some stuff. She is still rolling over but now she is trying to roll over from her back to her belly and she's pretty much got it...its just the arm thats in the way. And she not even 3 months yet! Sometimes she actually looks like shes want to get up and crawl. At one point i thought she was. I dont know if i wrote this in the last one but she sleeps threw the night mostly. But she still whines alot and still eat alot or as it seems. She loves to look at everything around her when we're out and she seems to like to watch tv too. Shes starting to like her swing now....which is great! She for sure loves her big sister. She ways smiles at her and Summer always talks to her and helps out when she can. They really do love either.

Christmas just passed and they got some good stuff. Summer made out on alot. So she has alot she can play with now. Alexis mostly got clothes which is great! Cuz she needs more winter clothes. She got alot of cute clothes. Me and Bryon got two gift cards which is great. Since we dont have the money to go out on dates. We've been trying to take each other out every paycheck if we can....to get our relationship back in order. And its been nice. Cant wait til our next one!

Our family doing good for the most part.Still worried about the money but tax return will be here soon enough and we can get back on track. And also hoping to get our annual passes for disneyland before we have to pay for Summer to get in. Which will be nice cuz we will be using that alot! Its mostly alittle present for all of us. I think we deserve it cuz of all the stuff we've been threw that last year. And summer will love it even more now that shes a year older. Lexi wont as much but its ok....she will when she gets alittle older. By the time we go Lexi will be 4 or 5 months and she will be able to go on most of the little kids rides...which will be great!

Just doing our best and trying to keep our kids happy and healthy! Well I hope everyone that reads this had a good christmas and has a wonderful New Year!

They are getting so big!

Oh so much as gone on in the last few months. Thanksgiving did go as planned as i like but thats what happens when you have two kids. But Summer got to swing on the big girl swing at my sisters. I was worried she would fall but she did pretty good. That friday (black friday) Me and Bryon actually went on our first date in a long while and that was so wonderful. Everything just went so great. Until the end when we decided to go to target to get a tree cuz they had them for a good price but something happened with the bank and etc. But luckily the next day they still have some and we got the tree then and we decorated it that Saturday or Sunday. Summer was pretty much helping us. It was cute! Then the next day we did the outside lights which looks cool. Summer loved looking at them and still do. Since then I've been trying to think and write down what we are doing her her birthday and i think now we have everything written down that we are doing. We did go to party city to get some stuff and a few days ago, we went to albertsons and found the cake we want to get. But we have to go over there so see if they actually have the stuff for the cake. The theme this year is going to me Minnie mouse! She's going to love it. Im just hoping that i wont rain. If not, our apartment is going to be cramped. But it will work out some how. we also went to the 99cent store and got a few simple toys that i knew summer would like for christmas and when we actually get money we will buy the other toys or whatever. Still have to think of what to get Alexis. I might just get clothes since she doesnt have much winter clothes since summer was born at the end of winter we didnt need the clothes or she didnt fit in them yet. Im sure we'll think of something. I just wish it was done and over with so i dont have to stress over it anymore.

I will be going back to work in a few weeks. Its going to suck but i gotta do it. I just dont want to work those late nights. And then having to come home and have the baby still awake or whatever. Well if its like it is now then she might be asleep. But i have been luck and Alexis will sleep threw the night most nights. So its nice. Last night we took the girls to see christmas lights but of course Summer love them and Alexis was whining the whole time until the end when she finally fell asleep. Oh well, atleast i got a pictures on my phone since i forgot my camera. Summer is going to be fun this christmas and with everything. And i really cant wait until her birthday. Why does all the excitement have to be at the end of the year? See theres Alexis birthday and halloween and then thanksgiving and christmas and then Summer's birthday. Oh and if you want to count mine and Bryon's Anniversary in Sept. Theres nothing really in the rest of the year besides my birthday in Jan and then Easter and then the 4 of July. Well i guess it just gives us something to look forward too. Oh well!

Right now its poring like cats and dogs. It only rained one other time for one day and for not very long too in the last month. Since then we havent had anything. But its suppose to rain for the next few day i think. It will be nice but suck at the same time cuz we wont have anything to do unless we go to the mall or something but we really do have money which sucks. I really hope we get out of the money issue. Im so tired of not having money for anything. I just hoping we can get some more presents for christmas. Who knows. Im not going to get into all that. It will just stree me out even more. But we are trying the best we can. I just wish taxes return would hurry up and get here. Oh well!

But other then all that... we have just been staying at home or doing alot of stuff like going to the park or to the beach when its not so cold or rainy. Just anything really cheap or free. Just like this weekend...they are having this thing at the rodeo and kids eat free and we only pay $3 each and then the kids get to see santa and they give out gifts. So it should be fun! I forgot...yesterday we told out christmas pictures....as you can probably see on the blog picture. The only thing i wish was that Summer didnt acted up. we didnt get any pictures with just her. We got some of Alexis. Maybe we'll dress her up again and take some pictures when shes actually happy. It was around her nap time when we did them. we'll see. Anyways, Ive typed to much already. Ill write again soon! If i dont before christmas or new years...Happy Holidays and Happy New Year!

A month later.....

Wow....its been awhile since ive wrote on here. Well things have settled down since the last time i wrote on here. But still crazy as always but ive managed it.

Alexis is a month and about a week now. I can tell she's getting bigger cuz she really doesnt fit into the newborn clothes anymore. She loves to eat all the time. And she has just started smiling more. This morning...she was in a very good mood cuz thats all she was doing is smiling but when i got the camera out...of course she stopped smiling. But ill catch her one of these times. With the breastfeeding....i kinda gave up on that. Im not really getting anything anymore which is sucks but good at the same time. My wic appointment is tomorrow and i might just get a pump and see if i can get my milk flowing again. If it doesnt work...im just going to giving it back next appointment. So we'll see on that. She seems to like being held too but its just so hard when my back has been hurting alot more lately. But i try my best on what i can do. Oh, another thing on her feeding.... last week or the week before that...she would throw up alot and it would worry me. But we changed her to this other formula...i think its more sensitive to the stomach and it seems to work cuz she hasnt since...well after as i know anyway. Im just hoping wic has that formula. But another then that...she been a good baby. She's been sleeping pretty good during the night. Most nights i only wake up like two times to feed her. So thats nice.

Well with Summer...she's been a different story. She's good with her sister. She gives her kisses and when Alexis is in her chair and her binky falls out she tries to put it back in her mouth. She kinda has been more of a helper with somethings. But on the other side...she acts up more. She is really testing us on everything. I have been so much better on handling it all unless i hadnt had any sleep the night before then im at the point i want to shoot myself. But she's getting so big as well. She's kinda saying more words and trying to show us more on what she wants. We just started taking her to the park thats just down the street from us...and its gated in which is great. But today wasnt a good day for her at the park. I dont know what it was but she just kept getting hurt. And then this stupid boy hit Summer with the swing and he knew what he was doing. I was ready to hurt him. And it was the challenge of holding Alexis and comforting Summer...luckily my friend was there with her little one and she held the baby for me so i could comfort Summer. Oh it was just a mess! Now that im thinking about it....i still want to hurt him for doing that. I know kids are just being kids...but why would he do that...knowing she was there. I want to know what went threw his head. Grrrr....! Oh well. But anyways. She has two favorite stuffed animals...well its actually Minnie Mouse and Jimmy cricket. She plays with them all the time. Most of the time she takes one with her if we go somewhere. Its cute. She still loves to get in your face and talk your ear off. We still havent got her in her big girl bed. We havent really tried since the baby came. I know we probably really need to but its so time consuming! Just like potty training. We still havent done that either. I realize why Summer kept leaking threw her diaper....well kinda i guess....We need to get her size 4 now. The threes are just to small even tho the weight on the box says i think 28lbs. Who knows. She still doesnt listen when we tell her no or do get into that etc. Still working on that. Still going crazy haha! But other then that...she doing great.

Sorry i had to stop this last night....so its the next day (friday). We went to my WIC appointment. Summer is 26lbs and 34 1/2 inches long! And Alexis is 9 1/2 lbs. I really thought boht girls would of had more weight. But its ok. But Summer seem to have fun at the app. Good thing there wasnt anyone really. Cuz she was running all around...well Bryon was chasing her too. It was even more better cuz Summer got to go on the big girl scale when she was getting weighted and did the big girl height thing. And she did so good! I was surprised. She is getting so big...i somethings cant believe it when i actually think about it. I will almost have a 2 year old. Soon she'll be 3 then 4 then 5 and before we know it she'll be 18 and about to go to college and all that. Oh boy, how time flights. And theres little Alexis. Im just wondering how she'll be when she alittle older. Oh Last night, Alexis let me sleep for i think 6 hours. It was nice. I did end up waking up a few times but she was still sleeping. Still kinda working on the breatfeeding. Im pretty much up to nothing now...so it kinda sucks. But i still give her whenever i can get out. I really need to start thinking about Summer's birthday party. I have a list of people i want to bring and what cake im getting...I just need to figure out food, place, and decorations and present! I just hope we can get the money for it. Im sure we'll think of something.

This month has gone so fast. Its almost thanksgiving. And soon it will be christmas. Hey at least i dont have to work black friday this year! Very happy about that. And half of the christmas season. But im just worried about after christmas and the hours that they;ll be giving us. I know its going to drop down to probably nothing. Thats why im still trying to get another job. I applied at Barona again but i know they will probably not call me back. Theres just so much stress with alot of things...its like controlling me and my moods. With that and money...it just a big long story. And i just dont know what to do or how to handle it. Im trying to not let me girls see it or even feel the best i can. Bryon says it should be better in the next few weeks but honestly...its hard to believe...which everything we go threw and have gone threw. Id like to say i cant wait until tax return comes but i have a feeling its just all going to be a waste like we do every year. I dont know. Hoping some kinda miracle will come soon. But enough of that...cuz im just get even more depressed.

Well im going to go lay down before Alexis wakes up...so hoping i wont wait this long to write on here again. But ill do my best! See ya!


Oh.... Halloween.....Its was great. Alexis was mostly asleep the whole time and Summer was having fun! She pretty much knew what to do and sometimes said trick or treat and thank you. It was cute. That was a fun night!

The adventure has begun!

Things have been interesting lately now that i have two girls. I forgot how much clothes a baby goes threw within a week and how hard it is to get up at night. But ive gotten use to it. Luckily i got a great hubby and stays up for awhile at night and feeds her a few times before he goes to bed. He always plays his computer game anyways. Also i just started getting use to the fact that im not prego anymore and i can actually wear my normal clothes which im very happy about. Well kinda...I cant wear the jeans i have for some reason yet...so im going to have to buy some. I got some of the place cleaned and i was going threw my closet and got all the prego clothes out. It was kinda sad....cuz i dont think ill ever wear them again since we are pretty much done having kids. Two is hard enough. But anyways....Im just still trying to get use to this breastfeeding stuff. Im like thinking that all the milk will just go away like last time but its still coming but im worried that she's not getting enough. I still dont know. We do give her formula but i really dont want to or atleast not during the day. But she eats all the time so my milk doesnt come in quick enough. I think shes gettin use to the bottle and she's not wanting the breast as much. But im sure trying. With Summer....i think she acting out more and she gets more attached to me....even more when i hold the baby when she's being feed. Im just doing my best to make time to spend with both of them.

Sorry Im just alittle tired so I lost what stuff i was going to write. Well this weekend is halloween and i cant wait to take the girls out trick or treating. Or atleast Summer. Im not sure what we are planning on doing but we might go to the mall cuz some of the stores there hand out candy. I know my store does. And then go to a friends place and walk around there. So it should be fun! Cant wait to dress them both up. I just need to get one thing for Summer's outfit and then she will be set!

Sorry i have to cut this short...Summer is getting into things! Until next time!

Alexis is here!!!!

Sorry it took me so long to get an update on here! Ive just been to busy or just in to much pain to come on here and write all the stuff thats going on!

Well anyways...on with the news. Well i had Alexis on my induce date. When I got to the hospital at 5am...we had to check in and waited in the lobby for like an hour. After they called us and got me all set and into my robe and put the everything in my arm, they started Pitocin...to start my contractions. I started feeling them pretty soon after which was good. After an hour or two after that... I got my epidural and I was in heaven! It wasnt a feeling i had last time. Im thinking they put it in wrong the last time. The only worse part was when they were giving me the epidural....he stuck me like 5 times trying to get it in right....but it was all worth it in the end cuz i didnt feel a thing....beside the pressure of the baby coming. To me it was the perfert birth i could ever have. My first one was the worse. So i had the good and bad of both worlds in labor. The only thing that sucked about the after labor cuz of the pain. Im in more pain then i was last time. But im managing it the best i can. But anyways....after the baby came out...it was the weirdest feeling to have a normal birth and hearing Alexis cry....was so great and i just started sobbing. It was so great. Another great part of the labor is that i pretty much laughed threw the whole thing. Thats how well the epidural worked. I was so grateful how everything worked out. And that i got to have my doctor do the delivery and he made it even more better. Oh another thing is...when Alexis came out and saw how much hair she had and how chunky she was. it was great. Our mouths just dropped when we hear how big she was. Well here's all the info...

Alexis Marie Anderson
Born: 10.13.09
Time: 11:02am
Weight: 8lbs & 10 ozs & 19 inches long!


Oh...another thing i remembered, My sister was there in the room with us and she had to leave at like 11:30 to pick up her girls and she really wanted to be there for the birth and kept telling me and the baby to hurry to she can see Alexis. I guess the baby heard her cuz I was dilated at like 10:55am and it only took like 5 to 10 mins to push and she was out. So it was great for my sister too! That day was just all round a good day. Gees, I keep remembering another things. Another thing was when I got all settled in...when they checked me...i was 4 or 4 1/2 cm dilated. So i made it pasted the hard part at home...so thats good! I didnt have to do it at the hospital. So i was really in real labor for like (well when i woke up really) 6 hours! It was great.

Alexis and I got to go home the next day at around 5pm. Now she's a week and a half old and doing good. She really a good eater. Its gets really hard to feed her when she wants to eat every hour but it mostly cuz she falls asleep and when i want to put her down...she wakes up. So i really get no rest. We do give her formula at night to help her sleep longer so i can sleep and have the energy during the day. But mostly breast feed all the other times. I knew it would be hard with two kids but its harder then i thought. And im just trying to deal with it the best i can along with the pain i still have.

Summer seems to be handling the big sister role pretty good. She has her moments. I can tell she's getting more and more attached to me...which is great but with the moods i have been having that your get after birth...sometimes its annoying. I know that not good to say but its just want i feel. Theres just alot to adjust to now that i have to girls that need me all the time now. And i feel bad when im in the moods and that i just seem to yell more and then later i cry about it. But im hoping things will get better soon! Im taking pills for the pain and it seems to be helping my mood too which is weird but its good too. Im also glad i have Bryon there to help me threw things. Today was actually the first day he went back to work and i had the girls all day by myself. Some parts it was hard and part of it was cuz of my pain and when Summer would get into something or do something she's not suppose to i would have to get up and it would hurt. But i think i did pretty good i guess. I did cry when Bryon lefted for work this morning and not wanting him to leave. I really didnt think i could do it but i had no choice. I just hope tomorrow will be better when he goes to work again. It is great to be a mother of two girls but its not easy. It just takes time to get use to it.

Besides all that news... Im still hoping to take the family to the pumpkin patch before halloween. Just hoping that i can get somewhat better with the pain and same goes with Bryon. He's been having back/leg pain. He went to the doctors and they gave him pills to take. They seemed to be working alittle bit i guess. But who knows. But i know we'd have fun at the pumpkin patch. Theres a few cool things we all can do there. I also cant wait for halloween. Dress both the girls us. Im sure i told you before what they are going to be but im just going to say it again if i didnt. Summer is going to be minnie mouse and Alexis is going to be a flower. We are still not sure where we are going to go for trick or treating but i sure it will be super fun! And i will take alot of pictures for sure. I just cant believe halloween is in like a week.

After that, we are going to have to plan alittle bit of Summer's 2nd birthday! Its kinda hard to believe that she'll be 2 in 2 months. She surely acts like she is! And about a month after hers...is my 25th birthday! Thats even crazier! Hopefully we'll have some money to do something. Just kinda sucks that i dont really have any friends to celebrate with except 2 or 3. I guess all that matters that i have my little family to be there. Im just glad i wont be pregnant.

Well anyways....Im sure i have more to say but i just cant think of it at the moment like always. But I will write again soon...whenever that is! =)



Alexis a few hours after birth!


Alexis and her daddy!


Our family!

Update.........

Sorry its been awhile since i last wrote....Alot has happened. Well from the beginning... first we finally found a new home for both cats. They didnt get separated. Which is very good. And it was a very hard time for me...and somewhat for Bryon as well. Its even harder for me to see Summer not have any pets unless she visits my sister's. She has two dogs. I would say Bryon's grandma's but she got scared the last time...probably just cuz they were barking alot. But is got me ever sad....is when she found a book and saw a kitty on it and that then looked under the table where the cats used to lay. And they werent there. Sorry im in tears again. Its been pretty much a week since they've been gone. We are kinda getting use to them being not here now. But to me it still hard. Luckily the own owner said it would be ok if i email her every now and then to see how they are doing. I just have go much guilt that i had to do it but we had really no choice unless we wanted to get kicked out of the apartment. I sometimes thing....they're are probably thinking what they did wrong and why they are at this new place. Im just sure if ill ever really get over this. I know your all thinking that i will sooner or later....but i dont know. Im just worried about the depression part and then after the baby is born it will be worse...cuz i got it pretty bad last time. I dont know....im just taking it one day at a time.

ok moving on..... next would be Summer getting a toddler bed. Finally got one but only tried to get her to use it once and it didnt really go well but will keep trying and hopefully sooner or later she'll sleep it in for good. She seems to love to play on it and sit on it but not sleep on it. We also finally got the room changed to have both bed fit good in the room. So the room is looking good besides the toys every where. Got Alexis's letters up on the wall that spell her name. It looks good!

In the last week....we got the girls costumes. Alexis is going to be a flower and Summer is going to be minnie mouse. Cant wait to take them out on halloween.

And the big news is.... not this last appointment but the one before that....I had the lady doctor and she took me i was 3 cm and that i go on bedrest for the weekend and i did and then i had an appointment on tuesday and i was think same and that im going to have the baby in a weeks. So next tuesday (the 13th)...hopefully by noon...Ill have little baby Alexis! The only think that sucks is that i have to bee there at 5AM IN THE MORNING! I know im not going to sleep at all that night. I know this cuz...i normally dont go to bed until about 12 am or 1 in the morning...i dont know why i just cant sleep. So knowing me....ill be up cleaning and getting ready. Ive been starting to get nervous and thinking about it more. Im sure ill be fine but the pain and just everything. Im just hoping the medicine doesnt wear off like last time. That was one of the hardest parts. But i really cant wait until its over and im not pregnant anymore. Just trying perpare myself as much as i can. Always trying to make some kinda list. My sister ended up buying Summer a shirt that said "Big Sister" on it. Its cute. So hopefully she'll have it on when the baby is born and she comes and visits me.

For Summer.... she has been says a few more words. Just cant think of them at the moment. But she's been more.....bratty i guess you can say. She's been trying harder to make us mad by getting into things and just etc. She's a good climber now. Getting on the couch more. Its funny...the little boy next door...he's about 7 or 8 years old and he likes to come over and play with Bryon on the PS2 game and she always tries to follow him around and talk to him or his mom. Oh yeah thats her new thing now. Say hi to everyone at the store. Its so funny. For who knows her well...she more shy to people but the last time we went to walmart...she said hi to everyone. Oh and she likes to be really loud. We dont know why but she does. At least she's not crying i guess. She's just a weird little girl.

Well thats all i can think of right now....so probably the next time will probably be either the day before i get induce or after i come home with the baby. Probably before cuz ill probably wont have time to write a big long thing. So until next time.

I'm 9 months today!!!!!

And I have about two more weeks to go. I went to my doctors appointment once again and He checked me again and everything was the same but i was getting very soft. He told me that i probably wont have any trouble delivery when i get induce and that it should go fast. So that what im hoping. He wants to induce me either the 10 or the 13. Im hoping the 10th but whatever happens...happens! He said he would bring me in the morning and then hopefully have the baby in the late afternoon. So thats so great! I cant wait. Ive been thinking alot more now the baby is coming very soon. Not looking forward to labor or sleepless nights but im sure ill deal with it. Ill just be happy to not be pregnant anymore and i can just get back to my normal self. Ive been telling myself i need to make a list of things either i need to do or need to go. But for the most part im set. I keep saying that i need to get the carseat base but i always manage to not get it from my moms. Oh now i remember what i was going to say....I asked about the pills im taking...i think hes going to take me off next appointment i think or maybe it was when i see him next. I have the appointment for next week with the lady thats normally there is he's not and then the one after that thursday...i will see him. Hoping i can handle it when he takes me off. The contractions do hurt sometimes. Oh so much to think about.

Other then that....we have to deal with the fact that we still have the cats. I really want them gone before the baby comes...so im hoping the ads i put out on the internet...someone will email me.

Summer is still being Summer. She's been saying a few more words that ive noticed. Still trying to find her halloween costume for cheap. And of course Im getting Alexis's at walmart. Hoping they still have her size. I cant believe Summer will be 2 in like 3 months. I almost made it threw another year. Trying to figure out her room and how im going to put her crib and her new toddler bed in the room for when its time for her to change beds. If i havent said before....Ill probably start her in her big girl bed for naps at first so she can get use to it. Summer has been so crazy lately. When we had Bryon's little party...which was great btw.... Our friends that have alittle boy....they were so funny. They would chase each other and just laugh and all that. Summer played so good. I just feel bad cuz she really never really plays with other kids. And her best friend moved away...so the other real friend she has is her little friend thats a boy. Theres other people i know that have kids....but i dont really hang out with them. I try to get together with her friend and his mom but it normally hard cuz of my being prego and being tired or im busy or she's just busy. Sometimes i feel like maybe i should put her into daycare for an hour or so...so she can play with other kids her age. I dont know. Its going to be more hard when the baby comes. I dont know....im sure we'll think of something.

Im sure i have more to say but i cant think at the moment but ill keep everyone updated!!!!

Today is not going to be my day....i can see it now. I put an ad on Craigslist.com and someone replied to it yesterday. I broke down. And the lady actually wrote me back today to come and see the cats. I told Bryon that i wouldnt be able to talk to the lady and that he would have to do it cuz it would hurt to much. And then my mom's dog mine be put down cuz of what she has. And i feel bad for Summer cuz thats the only animals she actually has and sees and plays with. Yeah she has her toys and us to play with her. But she loves her kitties. I know she would understand but still i feel guilty for doing this. But we really have no choice. I just hope the cats actually go to a good home. I just have to many worries for everything. It just hurts inside to see my cats go. And here i go crying again.

But besides all that....i had my two doctors appointments yesterday and today. Yesterday went so good. Alexis is 6 lbs and 3 oz and she had alot of hair. And today was just a check up and Im still the same and heart beat was good. If nothing happens in the next two weeks...she will most likely induce me which is going to be the third week. So it will be great. Its amazing that i actually pretty much made it to full term. It was a hard road but i did it. I just cant wait until this is over with.

With Summer...She is still crazy as can be. She loves to talk but in her language. We went to walmart yesterday and got Summer and Alexis's halloween t-shirts. They are very cute! I was thinking of getting matching ones but i didnt want to do that just yet. Even tho i really wanted too. Still need to get they're costumes. I think we are either going with minnie or princess for Summer. Mostly likely minnie mouse and im still not sure about Alexis. They had some cheap ones in the baby area at walmart that were like $8 and they did have newborn size...so i was excited there. But we'll see what they have when we go in next time. Still unsure where we're going for trick or treating. We went to Bryon's work to fax something but after we did that... Bryon wanted to see how tall she was and see if she was tall enough to go on this ride...but of course its not really a ride she would like just yet but at least we know how tall he is now. She's 33 inches tall. She's getting so big. She has a check up next month...so hopefully everything is fine when we go.

Tuesday was Bryon and I's 2 year Anniversary. For the most part the day was good. Of course we had to have our daily argument. Im surprised we've made it that far. But at the same time i knew we would. All together we've been together 6 years. Thats a long time. Well for the day...we didnt really do much. He made breakfast and used our new pancake thing we got from a friend that never used it. It worked great! But when it got to be later on....we dropped Summer off at my parents house. He took me to the beach where we love to be. The waves we so cool. They were actual waves. Most of the time when you see them here...they built up to nothing but not these ones. I go a few pictures of them. And after we were trying to figure out about dinner. We were going to go to hard rock just cuz we have there card thing...for everytime you eat or buy something there...you earn points and we had enough that added up to $20 and we were just going to use that since we were low on money but decided to not go there and go to this hotel/ resort that we were thinking about getting married at and they have some good food. It was alittle more money but it was still good. We earned it. It was nice cuz we were outside and it the sun was setting but it was getting cold. Luckily they had heat lamps. And they were willing to turn them on for us. And after dinner just went to pick up our little girl and went home. Wish it could have been alittle better if we had the money but what can we do. Hopefully next year we can afford to actually do something.

Well tomorrow is Bryon's 27th birthday and I'm trying to plan a little party for him. going to make a cake and cookies. Make a dip that i havent done for a while. But hopefully everything will turn out ok. Probably after this...try to take a nap before my mom brings Summer home and put her down for a nap and then hopefully im not to tired and clean. But we'll see how much i get down! If not today...ill do it tomorrow with everything else i have to do. =)

Well that all the news i have for now.....until next time!

Update from this morning......

At the appointment....the doctor checked me again and pretty much just said that same thing. And he said i had nothing to worry about. I just just need to keep taking the pills. He even said that if i last until 37 weeks....he'll induce me! So i was happy to here that. We also asked him about the cord blood thing and he showed us which one he did for his family and its the best price that we can afford too. So i think for sure we are doing that. So it was all good news. Going back next thursday and friday. Thursday...they are going to do a ultra sound again so im excited about that and then friday....im sure he'll probably check me again and go over the ultrasound. So i think we are going to make it to the end this time. Even tho its really hard for me...i need to do it. Just hoping i can make it! Also we asked about the weigh...and he said she's over 4 pounds....so that good. Hopefully it wont be over 7 cuz i dont know if ill be able to handle it since Summer was 6 3....but we'll see. Its also cool cuz we might be able to pick when we want to induce me. If i do get induce....hopefully it will go fast. You would think i will just cuz of me having a baby already and im already at 2 1/2 cm. I just guess we'll all see! We'll im excited...cant wait!

Sorry if it been awhile since i wrote on here. Its just be a weird few weeks. Well besides the really really hot days... our air conditioner is still being a pain and turns off when it wants too and it makes me mad. And we cant do anything about it until we do something about the cats and that only story. I was totally fine with the weather until that mad dash of heat came last week...then i feet i was on fire or something. oh well. At least it over for a while from what the news said. But about the cats....we are still figuring out if we could get rid of them. I think its just time that we could. It will be hard i know but i cant handle them and then two kids. And they are chewing on everything and getting into everything. They just drive me crazy and they are pigs i swear. They eat so much. It just sucks that we just bought a bag of cat food too and it probably going to waste unless we give them the food too. Well depends on where they are going i guess. Still trying to find a home first for them. But its not really looking that good! Hopefully things will get better with them at a new home. Saves us alittle bit of money a month i guess.

On the real news.... well i had my appointment yesterday and they told me that i was 2 1/2 cm....soooo i have another appointment today to actually see my doctor cuz yesterday he was in delivery with someone. So i got the lady doctor...which is what i like. But im on bed rest until i know anything else. Which probably means that ill probably be on strict bed rest from now on....but you know me its hard...even with a toddler running around. But what helps me it...Summer's nap times. She sleep for like 3 to 4 hours and mostly thast when Bryon comes home. But im probably going to have bryon take Summer over to my parents more if thats what it comes down too or my sisters. But i guess we'll have to see how it goes. And oh...they told me i have to drink more water cuz of protein...which i dont get it...cuz thats all i drink every day...well that and ice. So i dont know what the deal is. But its weird...that like my craving....ICE! oh well!

With me getting more dilated...its making me more nervous and scared. I dont mind going into labor its just having the baby and the after. I just hope she's in the right spot for when she does come. I see all this baby shows and you see all these things that could go wrong....and it scares you alittle. But So far the doctor say she's doing good. Heart beat is still going strong. We decided that we are going to save Alexis's cord blood...just cuz of everything that has gone on and with Summer. We just thing it would be a good thing to do for our kids just in case anything happens. Well i was thinking yesterday that its kinda cool that im dilating at home and not have to be in the hospital and have them do it. Less the drugs...the better she'll be. And if Tammy is reading this....i found that dog you gave me finally that was in Summer stack of stuff animals. I really want to take it with me to the hospital when i go into labor...cuz i know how much it helped the last time around. I dont know what it was ...but it helped me sleep alittle more and just get threw my days in the hospital. So its my good luck charm.

Anyways.... I think Summer is really into her two's already. The way she acts is unbelievable. Half the time....we have no idea why she is crying...is just so hard. Im sure it will be easier when the baby is born and i can actually handle it. But at the same time....she's so funny. Im just still trying to figure out...why or if she even knows what i say half the time. Cuz she doesnt listen to anything we say. I dont know. Her next appointment is next month...so i guess we can ask questions then. The other day we went to the park...and she had alot of fun. Try to stay back and let her do things was hard but was there when she needed me or Bryon. But she did really good. She loved that tunnel that was on it. And yesterday before the appointment...we went to the beach for awhile and it was nice but hard for me cuz im prego. But i managed. Just sat down alot and drank water. Summer went on a few rides which she probably liked. But after all that....on the way home...she fell asleep thank god. She needed one. but it was only like 15 to 20 mins tho cuz she woke up when we got the my parents to drop her off so i could go to my appointment. But this morning...im all by myself. Bryon took Summer to my moms to watch her for the day cuz of me being on bed rest and that i have an appointment. So hopefully today will go ok. And we'll see what happens.

Well better go lay down...getting alittle tired and i will let you all know what happens! See ya!

Probably sooner then we think!

Well I have this weird feeling that Alexis will be here in the next few weeks if not sooner. The contractions are coming more as far as i can tell. Im so cant wait for the appointment tomorrow to see if anything changed and everything else. I do think something has changed cuz of the contractions and that im kinda starting to feel them more in some of the contractions. I told Bryon i think we should put the hospital bags in the car. Thats how serious i think its changing. If anything...i just hope she last at least until im 32 weeks. And im so close. I have like 4 more days. What would be kinda cool...is if she did come tomorrow...it would be on my dad's b-day. Im sure that wont happen but cool to think that it could happen. Another thing I'm worried about it that my water is leaking but its probably not since ive been going potty every half hour cuz I read that could be a few reasons i get some on the contractions...that and not drink enough water (i think). So hopefully it nothing. But we'll see tomorrow.

I try so hard to keep this apartment clean...since we dont know when the baby is going to come. With Summer, all over the place...its really hard. Well at least i got Alexis's stuff all set. Thats was more important. The only thing that i want to get now is....a box of diapers. We got that little bag for when we go to the hospital but i know that wont last long. Thing im hoping i dont for get is the camera when we head to the hospital for real. Ill just have to put it in my purse when we go to the hospital just in case! =) Im like super stressed but kinda excited at the same time. I just hope everything goes normal when i actually have Alexis. I just want to hear her first cry and actually hold her since i didnt get that last time. But i guess we'll see what happens with that. The really thing im worried about is C-section. Ive been watching all this shows today where they're giving birth and one had to do c-section. And at one point...it hit me again that this is real and i could be having this baby very soon. Im sure everything will be fine but still.


I think Summer knows there something going on....cuz she been acting up more. It could be just what kids do but to me its not normal for her personality. She's acting like a 2 years old (the horrible two's) even tho she had like 4 months to go. Its weird. Im sure the eating weird in normal. She's being more picky on what she wants to eat and even drink. I just feel bad that i have to lay down alot and she has to play by herself alot. I wish there was more people i knew that had kids her age to play with. Im sure we'll think of something. Yesterday, we were going to do laundry but Bryon would have to go to the store to get change. But instead, Bryon got her piggy bank and counted out $20 and just put a 20 dollar bill in it instead and i was wondering how much she actually had in it. Well it came out to be like $92 dollars in there. This was a tiny piggy bank and I was surprised to see all of the fit in there. We might have to get a bigger one again since she broke the other one or we might just start an account and just put it in there. We'll see!

Well i have more...but its kinda boring. So until the next up date!



31 weeks

Im 30 weeks and ten more to go!!

Well this would be the part where i was either trying to get out of the hospital or i was already out and on bed rest and hurting like hell when i was having Summer! But today i feel good besides the little pain in my back. But ill take that rather then be in the pain i was in last time. I really think we have hope that we can last. Hoping i get the experience that i wanted to have last time but didnt get. Hearing and holding that baby for the first time after she comes out and actually hearing her cry. Instead of seeing my baby leave the room right away. That day was one of the worst days of my life even tho it should have been the happiest. I was happy she was born dont get me wrong but its hard to explain until you can experience it yourself. The memories of going to the NICU and seeing her there and the way she was. She was my miracle baby! This baby will be just as a miracle cuz she will have made it threw the hard part where Summer was at! And im happy for that!

Besides all that, We went to the appointment on tuesday and everything was the same. Still have 1 cm. The doctor said i was more of a chance of having the baby early then someone else just cuz of my history and everything that has happened. And he told us that he could feel the head but it could of been just where she moving to at the time. She really moves alot. She moves more then kicking now unless im messing with her then she get mad or something and kicks that area! Its kinda funny! But another then at for the doctors appointment....he said i didnt have to be on bed rest anymore but i need to rest alot and he told me no more work until baby is born. So im happy about that in some ways. But other then that he wanted to see me in two weeks. So that a good sign!


Summer is still growing. Still being a pain =)Ive noticed she knows alot more and she's kinda be saying more word. Like " where did it go" (dont know where she got that!) She also says " uh-oh" now. She says more but i can think of them at the moment. Bryon wants to try to potty train her. She keeps taking off her diaper and from the weekly emails i get from this website...it looks like she mostly ready. I dont know...now that ive been talking about for so long...i just kinda wanted to wait until after the baby is born. I think it would be to much for me to do right now. I get so tired so easily now....and i dont like it. I pretty sure its cuz of me laying around for a week when i was on bed rest. who knows. Another thing Summer does now is sing. If she watching her show...she'll try to sing along with it even tho she cant say the words. But she's trying.


On wednesday, we had to leave the apartment for the night cuz they were spraying for roaches. I was the only that had to be out for 24 hours which sucked so bad. when everyone else could come back after 4 hours. I was so bored at my parents. But luck enough my mom took her to the store and where ever else for a few hours. So i got a nap in. And then when it was bed time...Summer whined alittle but surprisingly went to sleep but woke up a few times during the night. Unlike me...i was up almost all night. If it wasnt Summer, it was the cats and if it wasnt then it was the baby moving. But luckily when bryon lefted i went to sleep and had about 2 or 3 hours of sleep. So that was enough for me. When it was around 10 am...I got up and wanted to get ready...so my mom could bring me and Summer back to our place. Even tho i hated my place so much...it was so good to be back home! But in the meantime...Bryon was in Palm Springs....which stressed me out. I was a mess until he finally came home. Part of it might had to do with lack of sleep and of course me being prego. But besides all that...I was trying to keep myself busy and putting some of the stuff away that we had to take out out the kitchen and bathrooms. I had to take like 100 breaks from it. But I got alot of it done which im very proud of myself. Now we just need to clean out the two last bins. I think one is canned foods and the other is pots and pans. So it should hopefully be easily.


Right now Summer is watching her Mickey Mouse Clubhouse Dvd. She loves to dance to the music at the end. Its funny. She kinda sings with it. Alexis keeps moving and making funny shapes of my belly. Me...Im just doing this and getting tired again. And Bryon is at work. Oh...tomorrow will be a month until our mine and Bryon's 2nd Anniversary. Its crazy. Im still not sure what we are going to do since im pregnant and all. Hopefully its something nice. We are also hoping for Bryon's birthday we can go to disneyland. He would be getting in free for his birthday and lucky enough my co-worker/friend was selling a ticket for 50....which is nice....and it would take the worry out of having to wait to buy a ticket at the park. The only thing i would have to go is...sit alot. I just do want to go and have to do that. Id feel bad for everyone else that would be going. It would be good cuz of Summer. I dont know. We would just have to talk about it and she who's all going and what not. I also would feel bad if we decide to not go cuz of me being pregnant and all that. And I know Bryon would be sad...cuz we've been wanting to go back for so long from the last time. I dont know. We'll just have to see how things go.

Well im gettin tired...so better lay down and feed little Summer. As i always do....ill keep everyone updated on everything.

What a week we've been threw!

For everyone that doesnt know what happened....

On Tuesday for my normal doctors appointment, the doctor does what they need to do and everything and i ask a question about the pains ive been having thinking it was just the baby cuz she likes to get in weird spots now. And i brought up Braxton Hicks and she decided to keep me and when she did she told me i was a tad soft and that i was 1 cm dilated. And at some point i wasnt surprised but i guess i was in shock tho that "Oh my gosh, its happening again" thought. And told me that i should be on bed rest for a week and take this pills and hopefully everything will close up and do its thing. I was thinking to my self again..."bed rest...hahaha. How in the heck am i suppose to do that and with a toddler running around. But that first night was hell for me. My back hurt so bad. But i guess i gotten used to it by the next day and i havent really feel any pain in my back. I still been having contractions as far as i can tell unless its the baby. But the next day the doctor wanted me to call to make sure everything was going ok...but ive been having some symptoms for the pills. Like feels sick and shaking and one other thing that i dont remember and im not sure if this was when bryon was still on the phone or not but i got up and i had pain in my stomach like it could of been contractions so they told me to come to the L/D so they can monitor me. I was there for about 2 hours but it didnt really feel that long though. And nothing happened while i was there and they took some kinda test which i havent heard back from now that i think about it. But my actually OB doctor came in and he said that i could go home and just wait for the results. So i was very happy to hear that. For those who saw my last time at the hopsital...i was just a wreck. But everything should hopefully will be good. I tell ya...little Alexis is a real feisty one. When i was just at the appointment...she like like or did some to the doctor when she was messing with my stomach. It was funny! To the last of the story....after my doctor told me i could go home, he said that i should have an ultrasound done tomorrow (which was today). So i made an appointment for that and went in today for it and everything seemed good. And got a few pictures out of it...which was exciting for me. Bryon loved seeing Alexis since he didnt really get to last time cuz we brought Summer...which wasnt really a good idea. But it was great. Now Im just stilling here writing this to everyone! Still on bed rest until next tuesday...so we'll see how things go. My luck I'll be on bedrest for the rest of the pregnancy. But we'll see.


But besides all that.... mostly everything is good. Missing my little girl. She's been at my mom's during the day, which is fine but I dont feel like a mom anymore cuz i cant do anything. This morning....i didnt care what they said...when she woke up..I changed her and got her out of bed! oh gees...im get emotional again. It feels like she doesnt care that im there anymore. She goes to her dad more and it hurts. I was doing to good for awhile and she would come to me but now this happen...its all changed. I know this will only be a short while but still. Just having all the memories coming back from my first labor and now this. What else are they going to throw at me. I just want everything to go back to normal. Two more months to go. It seemed so close but now for all i went threw its so far away.


Well i guess i better go and lay back down. But i'll let everyone know more details when i get then. Just need thoughts and prayers for these two months. Or more like that ill last with the bed rest. But im sure i can do it. Btw...Alexis say hi. She was moving while i was writing the end of this. But until next time!


Picture of her face...they told me she had some hair!


Picture of the side of her face....she weighs 3lbs and 4 oz

7 Months and counting down!

I guess you can say I beat my goal but i guess i didnt really cuz from what the doctor said Summer was born at 31 weeks but so i guess i still have about three weeks lefted. Well atleast i gotten this far. But what worries me is...that when i post something about the little bit of pain that comes every now and then....one said braxton hicks contractions. And for one ive never really heard of it. So of course i researched it and kinda got what it meant. But it just cuz that im feeling them and if i do work myself to hard again and again....it could lead up to the real thing. Im doing alot less then i have been at work but i dont know. I got the support band thing....i cant really tell if the darn thing works. Im guess it did cuz when i took it off the first time i use it...i was having some pains in my back. But im going to wear it to work and see how it does. but besides all that.... Alexis is really causing so pain with all the movement and pushing. Last night i was sooooo uncomfortable in bed that i decided to get my other pillow and put it kinda in between my legs and it helped suppose my belly and that worked. I fell asleep after that. But then i woke up a few times during the night and then Summer had to wake up like 6:30 in the morning. Im not sure whats going on with her sleeping habits. But ill talk about that in a minute. But beside the sleeping...I pretty much finally got everything that i needed to go done. Mine and Alexis bag is packed. I was thinking maybe i should pack a small bag for Summer But she'll be at my mom's so i dont really need much beside diapers and wipes. Who knows. Ill figure that out later. I got all the bassinet stuff all washed and set up. So we are good! Now just waiting on my new arrival!




About Summer....Well her daddy had gotten her a few sets of Little people stuff and it kind driving my crazy cuz it all over the floor. I dont mind it being there but with the space we have already...we just added more stuff we probably could have gotten after we moved into a house. But i feel bad cuz we havent really gotten anything for Summer for while...and she seems to love them. So im not trying to make a big thing of it. I just want or hurt Bryon for my listening...to pick up the toys so i dont trip over them. With Summer's sleeping...Im not sure why she keeps waking up so early. Sometimes she'll have her good night and sleep all the ways threw and then she'll have her other nights that she'll wake up at between 4 and 7am. Maybe she know something is up...i dont know. We try to talk about her baby sister when we can but im sure she still doesnt get it. And thats ok.


We just have some worries that most parents having with having a second kid. How we going to make time for both kids or mainly Summer for the first 6 months since my time will be for the baby and feeding her and all that. Im sure we'll make a schedule some how. And my worse thoughts are when i go into labor and having Summer at my parents. Thats going to be the hardest. Ive never been with out her over night and it upsets me when i think about it. But i have to think about it and plan what stuff to bring and all that. Maybe i should make a list. I know she'll be fine...but shes my baby and i dont want to have to leave her some where. But thats just me being a mom.

On tuesday, i went and had my Glucose shot done and still waiting on the results. Probably will find out on tuesday when i go in for my appointment. Im really look forward to this appointment cuz im just get worried about the pains im kinda having. Im sure its nothing to worry about and its normal...they did say that i would have some pains but i didnt really know what that meant. So hopefully we'll see where im at and the thing that keeps going across my mind is "bed rest". Since ive been off for the pasted three days ive been trying to say off my feet and kinda act like i was on bed rest but still got up when i had needed to for Summer. Yes thats another worry on mine is going on bed rest. When i had my review at work...i had a talk with my mananger and told her about how i worried about bending over to much and all that. Luckily i was surprised to see that she took it better then i thought. (long story with that) So we'll find out everything on tuesday and im trying to get all my questions down...so i wont forget. And I will for sure let everyone know!

Well im sure i did alot of typing....so i will end here and let everyone what happens on Tuesday. But until then......

Almost 7 months!

Today I'm 27 weeks prego. It just gets more and more interesting with Alexis. A few days ago....She was moving alot and while me and Bryon was in bed just watching tv before bed....she was moving and i pushed on my belly button and she pushed back on it and it was so weird and alittle creepy but funny at the same time. It looked like an alien in my belly.

Alexis Moving in my belly!

Alexis moving in my belly and Summer playing!



Well im getting closer and closer of having everything set for the baby to come. Finally got the bassinet and washed the fabric thats on it but still have to find this thing she will lay on that arches her up when she sleeps. Its suppose to help with something... I think helps them breath better or something like that! And i washed her swing cover. All i really need to wash is the thing i was talking about that she sleeps on and her bouncy chair cover. Today we are going to walmart so i will be able to buy the few things i need lefted. So im excited cuz one of the things is her going home outfit!!!

With Summer....she's still the same as before. Still drives Bryon and I crazy but a joy to watch. The only thing she's started that im not liking is....throwing. She throws things at us. Most of the time it hurts. Some she throwing at my belly or she'll kinda hit it...which im trying to teach her no and not to do that but of course she doesnt listen. Hopefully she'll learn soon!

Well Summer needs to take a nap and i need to rest and take a shower....so until next time!

26 Weeks and 98 days to go!

Today I was trying to make a list of things I need at walmart and then i started thinking about the party that i wanted to have for Alexis...but im just not sure anymore. People from my mommy group...says they think i should have one cuz why would i have one for Summer and not Alexis. I dont want it to be a baby shower...i just want it to be a celebration that she's coming and it would be optional if they wanted to bring a gift or not. But then when i talk to people i know like a few family members...they are just saying it would be a waste of time. I dont know what to do. Bryon just says dont listen to them and just have it. But i dont want to plan for it if no one will come. And for some reason...it would make sense to not have one too cuz we are trying to get out bills in order and trying to save. I dont know. Maybe i just wont have one. And if people want to buy something for Alexis....ill just let them know that we are registered at babies r us. Its just stuff we really could use...now that we've learn with the first!

It just seems more and more unreal that we'll have two girls soon. I feel mostly ready for her to come. Besides the few things i still need to get. But mentally, i feel ready. I just dont know about the lack of sleep. Im sure it will be ok. I just would what she's going to look like. I hope she looks like Summer. That would be great! And i hope she'll have red hair like bryon's hair has on his chin or bryon color eyes. That would be so cool. But if not....we will for sure love her just the same. Im just worried when 7 months comes. Thats when Summer came...so im being extra careful. I think i might ask my doctor in a few weeks when i see him if theres anyway i can get a not saying that i shouldnt pick up things as much when im at work. Cuz our racks get so messy and i try not to do alot of bending cuz for one it sometimes hurts my back and two sometimes my stomach hurts. Yes yes i know i shouldnt be doing it in the first place....but you know retail (if you were done it) its alot of work and some of the time i dont get help and im usually by myself in my department. But im doing my best to stay off my feet more and just relax. Last night i was surprised that Alexis let someone else besides me and bryon feel her move in my belly. It was even better cuz it was her soon to be god mom. (as far as i know) It was great.

As for Summer...She is still a growing and more active girl. Still havent tried potty training yet but hope to soon. She's learning so much! She's smart like her daddy for sure. I just wondering how she will react when her sister comes into the world. Im sure she'll do great.

Im still waiting and hoping to get into a house soon! Just really hoping something will happen and then we can afford to move. I just keep thinking how wonderful it would be to have a yard and more space to move for the girls and i wouldnt have to worry about the cats as much withe the small of the liter box and all that. And it would just be easier to get out the door if we had to go some where. I just hate the stairs we have at our place now. Im just always worried one of us is going to fall down them. oh and a garage! That would be so great. All the unwanted stuff in the house...would be put in there! Some day my dream will come true!

Well thats my thoughts for today! Until next time....

Well for an little update.... so not so good things happened to me. Well on Sunday night..like around 11 or so...i was getting alittle hungry and when i opened the frig....down comes the candle thing and glass gets ever where and next thing i knew blood was everywhere and i looked at my hand and there was this big cut and its kinda deep. So im balling my eyes out for bryon and summer was about to go to bed and she starts crying harder. oh it was the drama. So my hand is still wrapped up and its hard using one hand for everything. But i was proud today when i wrapped my hand by myself and no blood came out this time!! So its getting better. And then....on monday...some how i hit my leg really hard and now i cant really walk on it.





Besides that...Summer learned the word no. She says it every now and then and she's getting better at climbing on things. She is for sure getting taller cuz the stuff she couldnt reach before....well she can now! As for Alexis....she's still kickin and hard. Sometimes when im at work she'll push or kick really hard and it actually hurts. But its ok.


well thats my weekend! =)