Probably sooner then we think!

Well I have this weird feeling that Alexis will be here in the next few weeks if not sooner. The contractions are coming more as far as i can tell. Im so cant wait for the appointment tomorrow to see if anything changed and everything else. I do think something has changed cuz of the contractions and that im kinda starting to feel them more in some of the contractions. I told Bryon i think we should put the hospital bags in the car. Thats how serious i think its changing. If anything...i just hope she last at least until im 32 weeks. And im so close. I have like 4 more days. What would be kinda cool...is if she did come tomorrow...it would be on my dad's b-day. Im sure that wont happen but cool to think that it could happen. Another thing I'm worried about it that my water is leaking but its probably not since ive been going potty every half hour cuz I read that could be a few reasons i get some on the contractions...that and not drink enough water (i think). So hopefully it nothing. But we'll see tomorrow.

I try so hard to keep this apartment clean...since we dont know when the baby is going to come. With Summer, all over the place...its really hard. Well at least i got Alexis's stuff all set. Thats was more important. The only thing that i want to get now is....a box of diapers. We got that little bag for when we go to the hospital but i know that wont last long. Thing im hoping i dont for get is the camera when we head to the hospital for real. Ill just have to put it in my purse when we go to the hospital just in case! =) Im like super stressed but kinda excited at the same time. I just hope everything goes normal when i actually have Alexis. I just want to hear her first cry and actually hold her since i didnt get that last time. But i guess we'll see what happens with that. The really thing im worried about is C-section. Ive been watching all this shows today where they're giving birth and one had to do c-section. And at one point...it hit me again that this is real and i could be having this baby very soon. Im sure everything will be fine but still.


I think Summer knows there something going on....cuz she been acting up more. It could be just what kids do but to me its not normal for her personality. She's acting like a 2 years old (the horrible two's) even tho she had like 4 months to go. Its weird. Im sure the eating weird in normal. She's being more picky on what she wants to eat and even drink. I just feel bad that i have to lay down alot and she has to play by herself alot. I wish there was more people i knew that had kids her age to play with. Im sure we'll think of something. Yesterday, we were going to do laundry but Bryon would have to go to the store to get change. But instead, Bryon got her piggy bank and counted out $20 and just put a 20 dollar bill in it instead and i was wondering how much she actually had in it. Well it came out to be like $92 dollars in there. This was a tiny piggy bank and I was surprised to see all of the fit in there. We might have to get a bigger one again since she broke the other one or we might just start an account and just put it in there. We'll see!

Well i have more...but its kinda boring. So until the next up date!



31 weeks

Im 30 weeks and ten more to go!!

Well this would be the part where i was either trying to get out of the hospital or i was already out and on bed rest and hurting like hell when i was having Summer! But today i feel good besides the little pain in my back. But ill take that rather then be in the pain i was in last time. I really think we have hope that we can last. Hoping i get the experience that i wanted to have last time but didnt get. Hearing and holding that baby for the first time after she comes out and actually hearing her cry. Instead of seeing my baby leave the room right away. That day was one of the worst days of my life even tho it should have been the happiest. I was happy she was born dont get me wrong but its hard to explain until you can experience it yourself. The memories of going to the NICU and seeing her there and the way she was. She was my miracle baby! This baby will be just as a miracle cuz she will have made it threw the hard part where Summer was at! And im happy for that!

Besides all that, We went to the appointment on tuesday and everything was the same. Still have 1 cm. The doctor said i was more of a chance of having the baby early then someone else just cuz of my history and everything that has happened. And he told us that he could feel the head but it could of been just where she moving to at the time. She really moves alot. She moves more then kicking now unless im messing with her then she get mad or something and kicks that area! Its kinda funny! But another then at for the doctors appointment....he said i didnt have to be on bed rest anymore but i need to rest alot and he told me no more work until baby is born. So im happy about that in some ways. But other then that he wanted to see me in two weeks. So that a good sign!


Summer is still growing. Still being a pain =)Ive noticed she knows alot more and she's kinda be saying more word. Like " where did it go" (dont know where she got that!) She also says " uh-oh" now. She says more but i can think of them at the moment. Bryon wants to try to potty train her. She keeps taking off her diaper and from the weekly emails i get from this website...it looks like she mostly ready. I dont know...now that ive been talking about for so long...i just kinda wanted to wait until after the baby is born. I think it would be to much for me to do right now. I get so tired so easily now....and i dont like it. I pretty sure its cuz of me laying around for a week when i was on bed rest. who knows. Another thing Summer does now is sing. If she watching her show...she'll try to sing along with it even tho she cant say the words. But she's trying.


On wednesday, we had to leave the apartment for the night cuz they were spraying for roaches. I was the only that had to be out for 24 hours which sucked so bad. when everyone else could come back after 4 hours. I was so bored at my parents. But luck enough my mom took her to the store and where ever else for a few hours. So i got a nap in. And then when it was bed time...Summer whined alittle but surprisingly went to sleep but woke up a few times during the night. Unlike me...i was up almost all night. If it wasnt Summer, it was the cats and if it wasnt then it was the baby moving. But luckily when bryon lefted i went to sleep and had about 2 or 3 hours of sleep. So that was enough for me. When it was around 10 am...I got up and wanted to get ready...so my mom could bring me and Summer back to our place. Even tho i hated my place so much...it was so good to be back home! But in the meantime...Bryon was in Palm Springs....which stressed me out. I was a mess until he finally came home. Part of it might had to do with lack of sleep and of course me being prego. But besides all that...I was trying to keep myself busy and putting some of the stuff away that we had to take out out the kitchen and bathrooms. I had to take like 100 breaks from it. But I got alot of it done which im very proud of myself. Now we just need to clean out the two last bins. I think one is canned foods and the other is pots and pans. So it should hopefully be easily.


Right now Summer is watching her Mickey Mouse Clubhouse Dvd. She loves to dance to the music at the end. Its funny. She kinda sings with it. Alexis keeps moving and making funny shapes of my belly. Me...Im just doing this and getting tired again. And Bryon is at work. Oh...tomorrow will be a month until our mine and Bryon's 2nd Anniversary. Its crazy. Im still not sure what we are going to do since im pregnant and all. Hopefully its something nice. We are also hoping for Bryon's birthday we can go to disneyland. He would be getting in free for his birthday and lucky enough my co-worker/friend was selling a ticket for 50....which is nice....and it would take the worry out of having to wait to buy a ticket at the park. The only thing i would have to go is...sit alot. I just do want to go and have to do that. Id feel bad for everyone else that would be going. It would be good cuz of Summer. I dont know. We would just have to talk about it and she who's all going and what not. I also would feel bad if we decide to not go cuz of me being pregnant and all that. And I know Bryon would be sad...cuz we've been wanting to go back for so long from the last time. I dont know. We'll just have to see how things go.

Well im gettin tired...so better lay down and feed little Summer. As i always do....ill keep everyone updated on everything.

What a week we've been threw!

For everyone that doesnt know what happened....

On Tuesday for my normal doctors appointment, the doctor does what they need to do and everything and i ask a question about the pains ive been having thinking it was just the baby cuz she likes to get in weird spots now. And i brought up Braxton Hicks and she decided to keep me and when she did she told me i was a tad soft and that i was 1 cm dilated. And at some point i wasnt surprised but i guess i was in shock tho that "Oh my gosh, its happening again" thought. And told me that i should be on bed rest for a week and take this pills and hopefully everything will close up and do its thing. I was thinking to my self again..."bed rest...hahaha. How in the heck am i suppose to do that and with a toddler running around. But that first night was hell for me. My back hurt so bad. But i guess i gotten used to it by the next day and i havent really feel any pain in my back. I still been having contractions as far as i can tell unless its the baby. But the next day the doctor wanted me to call to make sure everything was going ok...but ive been having some symptoms for the pills. Like feels sick and shaking and one other thing that i dont remember and im not sure if this was when bryon was still on the phone or not but i got up and i had pain in my stomach like it could of been contractions so they told me to come to the L/D so they can monitor me. I was there for about 2 hours but it didnt really feel that long though. And nothing happened while i was there and they took some kinda test which i havent heard back from now that i think about it. But my actually OB doctor came in and he said that i could go home and just wait for the results. So i was very happy to hear that. For those who saw my last time at the hopsital...i was just a wreck. But everything should hopefully will be good. I tell ya...little Alexis is a real feisty one. When i was just at the appointment...she like like or did some to the doctor when she was messing with my stomach. It was funny! To the last of the story....after my doctor told me i could go home, he said that i should have an ultrasound done tomorrow (which was today). So i made an appointment for that and went in today for it and everything seemed good. And got a few pictures out of it...which was exciting for me. Bryon loved seeing Alexis since he didnt really get to last time cuz we brought Summer...which wasnt really a good idea. But it was great. Now Im just stilling here writing this to everyone! Still on bed rest until next tuesday...so we'll see how things go. My luck I'll be on bedrest for the rest of the pregnancy. But we'll see.


But besides all that.... mostly everything is good. Missing my little girl. She's been at my mom's during the day, which is fine but I dont feel like a mom anymore cuz i cant do anything. This morning....i didnt care what they said...when she woke up..I changed her and got her out of bed! oh gees...im get emotional again. It feels like she doesnt care that im there anymore. She goes to her dad more and it hurts. I was doing to good for awhile and she would come to me but now this happen...its all changed. I know this will only be a short while but still. Just having all the memories coming back from my first labor and now this. What else are they going to throw at me. I just want everything to go back to normal. Two more months to go. It seemed so close but now for all i went threw its so far away.


Well i guess i better go and lay back down. But i'll let everyone know more details when i get then. Just need thoughts and prayers for these two months. Or more like that ill last with the bed rest. But im sure i can do it. Btw...Alexis say hi. She was moving while i was writing the end of this. But until next time!


Picture of her face...they told me she had some hair!


Picture of the side of her face....she weighs 3lbs and 4 oz